HANDSOME BUT DAMNED - Attraction Page 7

  «Loser pays. Royal Flush» he chuckles contentedly. Here's another male ego which increases. I'm a fake pout and he laughs more. At that moment arrives Erik, needless to do so on purpose would succeed so well. You see that he's unhappy, indeed. I think it's really jealous of Jason. Should I try satisfaction; Basically this is what I wanted to see her reaction. Why do I feel guilty? I get going in the room without saying anything and I try in every way to avoid his gaze.

  Pass a good time to turn around and tossed in bed, a thousand thoughts assail me. In conclusion, one question haunts me: and if I was wrong? If he'd really wouldn't do this. And if you had seen what I have described and not for what it really is? I'd be curious if you hired me with the only purpose to get me into bed. This would help me to understand many things. I need to talk to him, I have to clear my head. I grab the phone and send him a message.

  "I need to talk to you. Can you come in the room? "

  Breath deeply thinking of what to say but I don't have the time that is needed for coming right up.

  «What's going on? » he asks alarmed. I'm sitting on the bed to observe it. When ripples his forehead he is so tender! "Wake up!" I say "did you call to ask questions and clarify, not to fawn over him".

  Close the door and sits on the bed beside me.

  «I want to ask you a question, and I wish you were sincere. » Is the moment of truth. One way or another.

  «You hired me to get me into bed?» question.

  His body becomes stiff, it's not a good sign.

  Chapter 13

  «You must respond me» I order him. I'm about five minutes standing in silence, which it is already an admission of guilt. But I want to hear those words come out of his mouth.

  «Yes, I hired you to take you to bed. But then everything changed, I.»

  I interrupt him byI giving him a slap.

  My heart went to smithereens. How could he? He seemed easy? One with whom he could party? The problem is not me but him. He thinks he can have all the women he wants. He is and will never change. I knew it was all wrong, I had to avoid it, instead there are waterfall like an idiot. I need space and I need to be alone. I can't breathe. I was wrong, I trusted.

  He looks at me while I wear a suit, I take my mp3 and I leave the House, I don't look back and without saying goodbye to anyone.

  I have to run and although I know the place, I don't care. I need to vent all that I have inside, and this is the only way I know how. I run desperate like I was running away from someone. I would find peace, I wouldn't be so bad, I would delete it from my mind. The real problem is that he entered the heart. There is no way to make it go away from there. How could I afford such a thing? He and his charm! From the first moment I saw him, my brain stopped working.

  Without I realizing I'm out for more than three hours, it's getting dark and it's time to return to reality. My phone keeps ringing but I ignore him, imagining him. In these hours alone with myself, I thought and thought about him. I want it but I'm scared, I want to live this love but don't know where it will take me. And, if you decide to let me go, what would happen? I never wanted anyone like I want him; as far as my rational side tells me to stop here, my heart does. For once I want to listen to it, I've decided, I want to live me Erik with all the pros and cons. I can't be forever a spectator of my life for fear of ill.

  Back at home I hear someone yelling.

  «Fuck, not responding. But where is over? » It's his voice.

  When I peeped into the living room I see him going back and forth passing his hand in her hair. You see he is nervous and apprehensive. My heart leaps for joy.

  «I'm back» I say breathing with difficulty. Maybe I went a little overboard with the ride but now I feel much better.

  «Why the hell didn't you answer your phone? » he yells. Seems relieved to see me but also angry. That news.

  «I wanted to be alone, I didn't know having to give account to you». Next, I should try to resolve the situation and do not add fuel to the fire. Sometimes I should hold your tongue. It seems that I'm challenging it.

  «I was worried, I thought the worst. » he' s cute, I was worried. All too protective, I must say.

  «Quiet, I'm fine, I can take care of myself» I answer winking at me.

  At that moment I decide to put the word "end " to my silence. I approach giving him a kiss. «I'm glad you care about me» I whisper when I left.

  I go in the room to take a shower, I don't know where I found the courage to kiss him in front of everyone. Puzzled look on his face was too comic, remained standing watching me. Can you blame him? Sometimes I find it hard to understand.

  After the shower I reach everyone in the kitchen. Claire makes a dead smile and I don't understand what you have; is strange since frequents that Logan. You're in love? Impossible, she doesn't believe in love.

  I remain silent throughout dinner, I don't know what to say, not one of many words. I look at Erik while talking to Jason and I think about how sexy. The thought of her naked body makes me blush and something tells me that who's watching me, too.

  «You okay? » he asks gently caressing my face. I cannot resist the temptation and kiss him but this time a kiss felt passionate about. And it is the second time in a few hours that I take the initiative, I'm precisely a case lost.

  «Lovebirds, what do you think? »Jason asks. I guess we missed any speech, because neither knows what he's talking about.

  «What?» I wonder embarrassed. He raise your eyes to heaven puffing. I feel Logan mumbling something but I can't figure out. Watch us all so weird. But who?

  «We were wondering if you wanted to go dancing tonight» he informs me. Erik watch me as to wait for an answer, which makes me realize that we are thinking the same thing: neither of them want to leave.

  «You get out ahead, we prefer to stay at home » I answer. I known for a smile of satisfaction appearing on the face of Erik. No objections, they understood that we need to spend time alone.

  After everyone went away I'm sitting on the couch next to him. Without wasting time on his arm wraps around my shoulders, pulling him.

  «You'll forgive me? » he asks.

  «Yes, you don't make me regret » I say looking into his eyes. Not responding, he approaches to kiss me. A long Kiss, how to seal a promise. Then he gets up quickly taking me in his arms like a bride. I already know what he's up to. I have no objections to do about it. We want the same thing. Got to the room I leaning gently on the bed, pulling his lips from mine. I had missed all this. A kiss can never make you go into ecstasy? Because that's how I feel every time he kisses me. His body wraps my wishes. I predict a long night of passion, which I didn't mind at all. I need him now.

  Chapter 14

  The return from London was very hard. I wanted to freeze time. We spend three beautiful days. Apart from the first day a little rougher, more blast. We visited many places, we went out clubbing, I got to know many sides of Erik.

  I have to say that even in private life is very authoritarian, he is getting him to take hold of the situation. I understand that he likes to be in control.

  His friends are really nice, he was always around. I found that to be a bit touchy, which made it even more interesting conversations. Erik spent all the time with me, we talked and now I can say I know a bit more. I'm just wondering if this will last. Maybe soon grows weary of me, as he always did with the others.

  Our history – let us call it – I still don't quite understand what it is. Yes it is affectionate and we spend most evenings together but don't get out like a normal couple. Maybe he's not used to having an affair and doesn't understand that spending time together is not just home, bed, work. Maybe I should talk to him clearly. Tonight I'd like to do something else, maybe go to the movies.

  Speak of the devil, here's his post:

  "Baby, I'm late, I'm coming with you in 20 minutes"

  "Ok. How about going to the movies tonight?"

  "I'm tired, watch a movie yourself".

  It was exac
tly what I meant, he never wants to go out with me. When he comes to his friends, however, he is always available. I repeat that I don't have to feel bad but it's not easy to keep up with him; He decides and I run it. I really need to talk to him about this. After 20 minutes, which I seemed eternal, here he comes. He's still working dress, sexy as always. I think I will never cease to fawn over him, he's perfect.

  «Hey!» I say visiting him in against.

  «Sorry I'm late but the meeting seemed to go on forever» he seems exhausted. You see he is tired. Giving me a kiss to mold and Sling it on the couch. But I say, two Coddling? Not to mention the passionate kisses ... What happened to them? Looks like one of those boring husbands after 50 years of marriage! I have lost a step. There is something wrong here.

  «What's the matter, baby?» But he knows I exist. I thought I turned invisible. She didn't even look at her.

  «I want out»I left off crying folding his arms.

  «I'm sorry, but I'm tired.» This I had already understood.

  «Please».

  «Again».

  I not falling for it anymore. You see always. «Tomorrow night? » I question.

  «I can't, I see the guys». Of course, they are more important.

  «You want your friends to me? » I ask sad. Here's what good to us girls, make you feel guilty.

  «This is not true, you know that I'd rather be with you, though I can't refuse. I never see them, try to understand, » he said shooting in the foot. He approaches by looking at me that way that he drives me crazy. I don't have to cheat. «You never go out with me. » I'm backing away putting pout. «I promise that I will forgive» He delete the distance between us in a few strides. I lose myself in his blue eyes, I won't be enough. Here's how I end up back in his net, damn! But why not oppose resistance? Should I do the offense, instead I melt into his arms.

  We spend the evening watching a movie, making us deserved pampering that it took them a while to get there but eventually arrived.

  When he said he was tired was not joking, it was so much that he fell asleep in the middle of the film. It's so cute when he sleeps!

  His face is so laid back! I don't want to wake up and I'm not going to get away.

  I want to fall asleep in his arms. I resting my head on his breast. His heartbeat is like a soothing to me. I remain in this position waiting to fall asleep. His arm is raised, holding me strong in itself. I look up thinking it's awake, instead of sleeping. That love! Think of me in my sleep.

  What if he thought to someone else? I'm just paranoid. I need to shape up.

  ***

  Tonight Erik goes out with his friends and I don't know what to do. I don't want to stay home, perhaps I could ask Claire if she wants out. By the time we got back we heard a lot. She now thinks only of Logan and I...Well I think always and exclusively to Erik. Although it makes me go on a rampage every now and then, I don't think I could live without.

  Coming back down to Earth. What was I supposed to do? Oh, Yes: Claire. I send her a message:

  "Hi, honey. Do you want to party tonight?"

  "Hello, little bitch. I can't tonight. Logan and I are out for the weekend."

  Then Logan doesn't come out with Erik tonight. This is what I meant: a man who prefers the girl at friendships. It will be a very feminist thinking but sometimes would like to be put in first place.

  "Ok, I thought tonight Logan dating Erik and Jason".

  "As far as I know, Jason is in Las Vegas. Sure you're OK?"

  "I don't know, Erik told me that she was going out with them tonight"

  "There's something wrong. You want me to come?".

  "No, it's okay, it's okay. I will solve this mystery alone. You have fun ".

  But who am I kidding? It's no good. I don't understand why he lied to me. What are you hiding? I don't want to prop his head ahead of time, although this behavior is strange. Because he told me a lie?

  I tried calling Erik twice. The fact that I have answered is driving me crazy. I'm in a rage and despair. What is he trying to hide? What do I do now? He thinks ... Where it could be on a Saturday night? I wouldn't know where to start.

  Usually we are together or ... «The club!» I cried loudly. It makes no sense. Why go there without telling me? And if it wasn't at the club?

  When in doubt, I decided to go check it out. I get dressed quickly with the first few things I captain in his hands. I grab my car keys and childbirth. I ride at high speed. Shouldn't, my mind is not entirely clear. I hope you have a good reason for lying to me. Arrived at the club left the car near the entrance and I run in.

  My eyes go straight to his table. Found it!

  Because he wouldn't tell me he was here? Just don't get it. Turned back and with him there's ... There's a woman. A woman? Oh, shit!

  My mouth opens wide, I can't believe my eyes. Why is sitting and talking with a woman who I've never seen before? The study for a moment noticing his flawlessly in the dress. Definitely has a few years older than him. She smiles at him. Begins to dizzy. And if he hadn't ever changed? And if was seeing other women, even if you see me?

  I am petrified, I was ice cream. My heart seems to have stopped beating. he can not doing me that. I not enough him, that's why he's here. That's why she lied. He is so, never wanted a serious relationship, he won't ever. As they said in that magazine: "change women like underwear." It's stronger than him. He likes things easy.

  A thousand thoughts crowded my mind, I'm so confused. All this seems like a joke. It's not possible. We haven't known each other for so long, I know. I thought I was all for him. I'm a fool to have fallen in love with him. I would go there and make a scene. But in the end I to him who am I? He never told me he loved me; of course, me neither I never told him. I had no idea who out of love suffer so much. I say, I knew very well that I suffered. That's why I was scared.

  Suddenly the woman he is with him he turns to me and looks at me perplexed. Maybe I was too long staring at her.

  She approaching him and she talked him something. I wish atop her however I'm jealous right now. Erik turns around suddenly. He sees me and he remains astonished, I would say that it seems to have seen a ghost. I watch him tartly to then turn around and run away.

  The tears make their way across ,my face, I don't want to make myself ridiculous but my heart is sore. I hear yell my name but I don't stop, definitely will have some excuse ready. I should have known that he was a nobody. How did I get there? We never go out. Aside from the days we stayed in London. Definitely took me there just to prove that he can have a normal history and not just nights of sex.

  I'm not enough for him and for his world? I was deluded. I thought there was something important. Apparently I was the only one to think so.

  I get in the car and the corner of my eye I notice it running toward me. Don't give him the satisfaction of seeing me like this. I turn on the machine and, without thinking twice, I ride like lightning. Why did this to me? I can't wrap my head around it. I can't wait to get home. I'm sick and I don't want to meet anyone.

  The phone is ringing, I grab it: he's Erik. I don't want to talk to him, I don't want to see you again. As I try to wipe away the tears a light dazzles me. Is too strong, I see nothing. Just now I remember not having put your seat belt on.

  A deafening noise. It all happens so fast. I lose control of the machine. I can't do anything, I just don't have the time.

  A knockout. I slam my head violently on the steering wheel. A pain in the head and then the total darkness.

  I wake up but I can't move. I hurt everywhere. I would open my eyes but I can't. I hear different noises but don't recognize anyone. What's going on? Throughout this dark I'm not afraid, I am at peace; It is a wonderful feeling. I feel free, as that hasn't happened in a long time.

  Chapter 15

  My head hurts and my whole body. Beep, beep, beep.

  Can't figure out what it is this sound. I would open my eyes. Why can't I open them? The eyelids seem so heavy! What happens to me. Where am I?


  Oh, no! Again the darkness. I don't want to! I want to wake up and know what's going on. I can't get control of my body. The darkness I invades again.

  I hear voices in the background. I'll be dreaming? I try to pay attention to those rumors, I think I recognize them. Seem to Claire and Erik. Sounds like they're screaming. Why?

  That annoying beep keeps going round in my head, it's annoying. I open my eyes and a light dazzles me. The image clears and I see everything white. Seems like the room of a hospital. Why am I here? As I look around I see Erik and Claire who are fighting. They're too busy looking into glowered to realize that I'm awake.

  «You're an idiot.» Claire's voice echoed throughout the room.

  «I know, but I thought it was better that way» he says. But what about this? I'd love to know what I missed.

  «Hey, you guys! » I say gentle swirling her hand. «Finally woke up! » she exclaimed my friend. Prying eyes glossy. Oh, no! You are going to make you cry. Erik stays at a distance, as if he were afraid of me. I look into his eyes while the last memories come to the surface. In my head pass quickly pictures of him with that woman and me that she ran.

  «Why am I here?» I ask huskily. «You've had an accident,» he says.

  Already, he! Great piece of ass, I'll pay! Lied, cheated on me. What chutzpah is here? OK, revenge mode.

  «Who are you ?» I ask. His eyes look incredulous.

  «You don't remember me? » you asks.

  Face your head slightly and look at Clara. I winked at me hoping he's in the game. Leans her hand over his mouth to block a laugh. I know, I turned a bad situation into something fun. Now that I remember, I had the accident due to a light that dazzled me as I walked fast. I cried for him and not have been paying attention to the road.